The moment you are reaching your lowest, is the moment you rely on others to pick you up.
That's what family and friends do, right?
Understanding your problems and struggles is not necessary what they do. Even when you tell them in detail, they'll never feel how you feel.
Maybe I'm overreacting, but so what? Your own problems are always the worst.
This numbing feeling of helplessness lingers in every corner of your home, every pore of your body.
When your friends and your boyfriend won't talk to you, ignore you and leave you, that's when your heart breaks.
And you know your mind and body will eventually follow.
I always wondered why some people just can't tell you what their problem is. I thought honesty is an important part of friendships? A little bit of truth. All I asked for. But this not how reality works.
It's not fair.
I told my friends all the time, that they sould straight up tell me if something is wrong or if the have an issue of some kind. How can you be a good friend, if they don't you to be their friend?
All this onesided relationships make me sick.
So basically, I always felt as if I don't belong.
Asking questions just to get ignored. Writing letters to people who will never reply.
This silence. It's cruel.
I spent 8 years being in love with the same person, but he didn't even tell me why he broke up with me after almost 3 years relationship.
This is not fair. None of it is.
Is this how people treat other people nowadays?
It was the most important thing in my life. And now it's gone. Without any explanations.
It felt like I lost my entire reason fore existing and I can't find a new one.
Why a I still here? To have everyone I thought was a friend punish me with silence? For what? What did I do?
I will never know. No one will tell me.